14 Oct Oops, I messed up – so what did I do and how did I deal with it 🤷‍♀️

Busy schedule on a weekly basis so as usual it’s like a military operation believe it or not I plan ahead, dinners are cooked a day in advance, all the mum taxi times are booked in the diary, the classes I give also in there. There are a few hours scheduled for study and of course my own training, this is non-negotiable for my sanity. This diary well it’s like my life in a little messy book, and without it I would be lost (3 kids and my own schedule to manage).

Monday all gone to plan ✅

Tuesday mostly went well till approx 9:10pm while on the way home from work, to collect my eldest from her training, I knew I had 20 mins to kill so popped into the shop to grab a little something for a cup of tea for when I finally get to sit down.

Five mins later I’m sitting in the car stuffing my face with not just one but three bars of chocolate and a packet of crisps, also a protein bar still in the car for my cup of tea later because this never really happened, but it really did.

My daughter comes out, we head home, dinner is on the counter, Sophie has hers, I wrap mine back up and into the fridge it goes because I’ve already had my fill of calories for the day and honestly I’m kinda not that hungry any more.

With the kids in bed I sat down with my tea and protein bar and all I can think is “What a gobshite!. I can have a little something whenever I want. I’m not that strict. Why did you do this to yourself?” What now? I think again and say “f%#* it, it’s done. No harm, get over it and forget about it. This is a rare occurrence so no big deal.”

The reality of it when I thought a bit more about it was I was craving chocolate real bad, this I’m putting down to my period as it had just started the day before. (Normally for me the week previous is the week where nothing can fill me and I have all sorts of cravings) as I said above I don’t not eat chocolate, I never deprive myself, I do I have a sweet tooth always have done but I manage it, clearly some days better then others.

I also have been very busy with family life, work, study & training sometimes being tired and stressed you can make bad choices.

Also just feeling sorry for myself, feeling hormonal, and really not myself.

Yes these were all my excuses 😳

So what did I do next?

Told myself that “Tomorrow is going to be a great day” and once you drop the kids to school your going to go buy yourself some beautiful fresh flowers, and that’s exactly what I did.

A wise woman taught me If you want something you got to go get it yourself don’t be relying on someone else to get it for you.

The act of this was more about being kind to myself, to stop the negative self talk and beating myself up over a stupid slip up, get over it and get right back on with normality. The flowers were a gift to myself to put a smile on my face to help change an otherwise bad mindset, and it worked a treat, pardon the pun.

Just because of my work, the natural assumption is that we eat 100% clean, healthy all the time, we do most of the time I do but I would be more of the 80/20 balance. Sometimes we mess up too and that’s ok, it human nature.

I guess what I’m trying to say is we all have bad days, that’s life. How you deal with it is also part of life and will determine your results.

Be kind to yourself, give yourself a break but get back on track and take responsibility for yourself, only you can make it work.

This happened about two weeks ago but I thought I’d share it with you, maybe it might make you laugh or think the next time you talk a bit harsh to yourself, either way thanks for reading and hopefully it will make someone think😉

Now go buy yourself some fresh flowers and put a smile on your face 💐😊